Lost In Beauty-

Saturday 30 April 2011

GOOD NITE EVERYONE! IM HERE TO BLOG AGAIN OK! BEFORE PROCEEDING. . HOWS UR DAY TODAY ? GOOD ? ALHAMDULILLAH. .
OK TODAY WHAT CAME ACROSS MY KEPALA OTAK IS. . BEING LOYAL TO OUR LOVE ONE! HMMMM. . IS THERE STILL A LOYALTY IN UR HEART ? ?
U GOTTA KNOW THE ANSWER FOR URSELF RITE. . YA. . TRU. . IM LOYAL TO ONE I LOVE TOO. . BUT NOWADAYS. . PEEPS ALWAYS SAY IM FAMOUS. .
COZ I HAVE ALOTZ OF GIRL FRIEND. . WHY MUST I BE LOOKED IN THAT WAY HUH ? NOT ALL PLAYERZ IS LIKE THIS OK. . .
IM JUST BEING MYSELF IN HERE. . WHY MUST U ALL SEE ME AS A PLAYBOY! WHY! TRY TO DIVE IN MY MOST DEEP HEART..
AND U'LL FIND THE REAL PERSON OF ME. . IM BEING HONEST WITH ALL PEEPS AROUND ME. .
IM ALWAYS THERE FOR ONE WHO NEEDED. . I CREATED A SMILE IN EVERY FRIEND OF MINE. .
I NVR FAILED TO MAKE THEM HAPPY when THEY ARE SAD. . I NVR FAILED TO CONSOLE THEM WHEN THEY CRYING. . .
BUT WHEN COMES TO MY TURN. . WHERE? WHERE ARE ALL THE PEOPLE TAT I SHOWERED WITH JOY . .
WHEN I CRIED. .I WAS ALONE IN MY ROOM.. LOOKING ON THE WALLS. . HUGGING MY SPONGEBOB. .
DO ANYONE CARE? NO! NO ONE! ACCEPT FOR ME N ALLAH. . .

AS DAY PASSED BY. . I KEEP ON THINKING BOUT MY FUTURE. . WILL IT RUIN ? OR . . . . ? ? I DONT KNOW. . . IM AFRAID OF LOVE. .I REALLY HATE LOVE! BUT I CANT escape FROM ALL THIS. . EVERY HERE N THERE. . HURTS IS ALL I FELT. . I JUST WANT TO BE IN LOVE. . AND TO LOVE SOMEONE. . I WANT THOSE WHO CAN BE BY MY SIDE,SHARING MY EVERY SINGLE PROBLEM. . FEEL MY LOVE. . HEAR MY CRY. . HUGS N KISSES IN EVERY MEET! JUST TAT. .

I HOPE..TAT ONE DAY. .WILL COME. . THE DAY WHERE IM GONE. .I DONT WANNA THINK BOUT ALL THIS. . I WANNA DIE IN PEACEFULL! U KNOW WAT! SOMETIME I FEEL LIKE WANTING TO END MY LIFE! BUT I KNOW IT WILL DOUBLE UP MY SINS. . DEATH IS NOT IN MY HAND. . IM GIVING IN. . WATEVA HAPPEN .. MY LIFE IS STILL BE THERE..FOR ONE I LOVE.. THAT IS MY FAMILY!

TILL HERE 1ST! AND I'LL UPDATE MORE BLOG SOON AITE!
*PEACEOUT* AAN

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Friday 29 April 2011

JEALOUS? ? NO IM NOT! ACTUALLY YES! BUT ABIT ONLY OK! ERMMM. . YA! JEALOUS . . WELL I KNOW WHERE IM STANDING. . IM NOT FATED TO BE WITH U,COZ THERE IS NO AND NVR BE A CHANCE THAT I COULD BE WITH U. . BUT AAN HAVE A FEELING TOO. . JUST LIKE THOSE PEEPS OUT THERE. . ITS KINDA HURT...SOMETIME JE. . I WAS INLOVE WITH U B4 BUT. . . ERMM.. NVM. . .TILL THEN SOMEONE CAME ACROSS ME. . I WAS LIKE OMG! I CANT DENIED THAT WHEN I SAW IT IN FB,U INRELATIONSHIP... URGH! OK! AS IF I CARE.. LALALALALA. . WELL.. AS I COULD SAY. . NO ONE KNOW HOW MY HEART FELT. . EVERY SINGLE MOMENT. . EVERY SINGLE SEC,MINUTES,HOURS,DAYS... ALL I KNOW IS.. IM NOT WORTH TO LIVE IN LOVE WORLD. . HAIZZZ.. LET IT BE. . STILL MANY OUT THERE. . YA. . PRETENDTING NOTHING IS HAPPENING . . AND YA. . SMILE TO THE SADNESS WILL COME THE HAPPINESS. . WOKIE! TILL HERE THEN! GOTTA OUT! TATA! PEACE OUT! AAN

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ASSALAMUALAIKUM WRB. . . .

HERE I BLOG AGAIN!! :@

WELL... TODAY IS ABOUT WATEVA IT MIGHT BE OK? ? AMACAM ? ORITE EH ? K K..
TODAY! TODAY 29.04.2011 A DAY FOR THOSE 21 AND ABOVE RECEIVED THEIR FREE MONEY! UWARGH!!! :'( WHY I NO GET? WHY ? WAKAKAKAKA! PERANGAI MINTAK KENA SEPAK SIOL! K LAH.. TOMORO IM GONNA COLLECT MY 5% FROM MY PAPA N MAMA FOR SURE OK! OR ELSE! AKU MAJOK FOR 19 HOURS OK..
ACTUALLY KAN. . I WAS TO BE BORN ON 1990. . SEKALI TERLEBIH MASA AH! TU PASAL TERKELUAR ON 1991. . HEHEHEHE! :))
HELL I CARE AH!
PADAHAL EKSYEN JE. .
K TODAY MY MOOD KINDA HAPPY PON ADA.. SAD PON ADA. . MARAH PON ADA. . ALL IN ONE LAH KIRA. . IM HAPPY FOR BEING WHO IM.. LIVING IN MY PARADIS . . WITH MY PATHETIC FAMILY..WAKAKAKA! I MEAN MY LOVELY FAMILY. . . I ALWAYS GET WAT I WANT. . MY PARENTS NVR LET ME DOWN.. ALL MY WISH IS GRANTED. . HAPPY TAU.. TAPI DISEBALIK KEBAHGIAAN SEMUA INI. . KITA HARUS FIKIR HARI YANG MENDATANG. . WAT WILL HAPPEN? NO ONE KNOW.. WA'LLAHUALAM..
K LAH.. NAMPAK GAYA NYA.. AKU INI SEBENAR NYA TYPING WITHOUT LINK ON MY BRAIN.. WAKAKAKA! HENTAM JE APE YANG ADA.. JANJI LU ORG PAHAM APA GUA TYPE AH! CANTIK! MACAM TU AH!
K LAH. . GTG NOW. . MAYBE I'LL BLOG AGAIN LATER.. OR MAYBE NEXT TIME. . *YEAH! PEACE OUT! AAN*!

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Thursday 28 April 2011

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                             Where Am I Standing? I Dont know..Woahahaha (-_-")

Light up the sensation of life. . Where? No Idea? Wat am i actually wanna say huh? Seriously..

Im lost... Wakakakakaka!!

Living in the Darkness of Life Doesnt mean Gotta Be Down to Grave 24/7 Right. . . :)

I just want SomeOne To Light Up My Life,Being there For Me When i need..

But Know.. i Dont Deserve All Tat..I Wanna Be in love And loved BySomeone Like Previously. .

But yet . . Still i Couldnt Find One. . Really kinda Sad Or Mad urmmm Maybe. . I Miss her so

Much. . Where is She ? Dont Ask Me..me my Self Dont kn0w Where The Hell is She now. . Pass

Few Day I Recieved A call From A UNKNOWN caller. . But Yes She Declared To me,She's my

Ex's Guy. . Hmmmm. . She Say She Dont Wanna Have a Quarell With Me. . But just

wanna Talk. . Hmm..Like i used to Say. . Im Easy going kids.So She told me Do I Still Contact

MAZDIANA i say yes. . Tru FB and Phone. And She Told me To be wise bout her. . Coz she got

the Feeling tat MAZDIANA is just trying to PRANK with the two of us. .Haizzz. . . . We Had A

Long ConVersation tho. . And She Told Me. Do I Ever Kneel on MAZDIANA Do I Ever Being

Beaten Byher. . Do I Ask Her For MONEY. . What The FUCK sia! Hell i care wat u gonna Say.

Who is she i wanna kneel At. . Hmmm. . And This Butch Told me.. "Well MAZDIANA do

actually admit to me last time,where u wanna leave her,she told me..She doesnt even Have any

Feeling For You A'n. .For 9 mths u've been together All the Love &Care are just FAKE" And

yes.. I Cant Denied Tat,I Do Really Cried. . Yes.. I Cried. I Cried Really Hard. . Why? Why is

this Happening to me? But Then Came One Of My Fren..Saying. . "A'n..It Being Told By Her

Guy. . Not By Her Rite? Why U Feel So Sad? He Doesnt even Have Any Proof To Say

MAZDIANA do really Say Tat.Mungkin Dia Tak Nak A'n Ganggu Pompan Dia.."And Yeah. .

Me Disturb her huh? SHE's THE ONE WHO ADDED ME IN FB in first place! Urgh!! I have

Stop Here B4 I Get Mad Again! Haizzz. . And Yes My Tears Is Rolling Down ByNow. Writting

This Blog Is Such A MAD thing i ever do. . Let's End It Here 1st aite. . *Peace Out Aan*

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